I’m taking a short break from my weekly posts here at The New Authors Fellowship.
A week before Christmas my mom had her yearly mammogram. Last Friday she was diagnosed with breast cancer.
That’s the bad news. The good news is that the doctors think that it’s only stage one. They’ll know more later this week when she has the surgery to remove the tumor. After a month of post-surgery recovery, she’ll have two months of radiation, but hopefully no chemo. The radiation will make her very tired the doctors say, so she’ll be getting lots and lots of rest.
I can see now why the Lord was shutting doors in the moving department recently. I’m so glad I’m still here to help!
I think we’re still working through the shock of getting such unexpected news, but the Lord has been giving us so much peace about the situation. Still, isn’t it funny how you think you’ve learned the trust lesson, and then something like this comes up and you find yourself in need of learning it all over again?
Two things I know:
1.) God is in control of this situation, as He is in all situations, good or not so good.
He’s just as much in control now as He was when Mom didn’t have cancer.
2.) I can trust Him.
He loves Mom more than I do, and there is nothing that comes from His hand that isn’t ultimately good for us.
“He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?” Romans 8:32
So, even if Mom’s cancer is worse than we think, even if the unthinkable should happen, God is still good. His character doesn’t change.
Is it easy? No.
I’ve found myself in tears over and over again, thinking about what the future could hold, thinking about my mom having to go through yet another surgery.
But this is where we learn the real lessons, isn’t it? This is where we learn to trust. This is where we learn more about who God really is. This is really rubber meets the road sort of stuff.
There have been so many trials in my life where I’ve let my heart harden in the face of hardship and uncertainty, but I don’t want that to be what happens this time. This time I want to learn the lessons I won’t learn anywhere else. This time I want to come to know the Lord so much better and closer than I do now.
So, I’m clearing my plate a little so that I’m more available at home. But, Lord willing, I’ll be back in April.
“Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:19
If you would, pray for my mom and our family as we go through the next few months.
Thank you so much for reading my posts these last few years. I’ve found so many sweet friends here. I’m really thankful for you guys!
See you in April.