This wasn’t working.
I scribbled out what I’d just written and stared at the huge amount of white space still left on the page. I’d obviously lost any small bit of writing talent I’d ever had. How could I write my book like this, if I couldn’t even write a decent first page?
I’d been plotting and planning and character recreating, but I hadn’t actually been writing. What if I’d lost the ability? What if I just couldn’t do it? I pushed back from the desk with a sigh. This wasn’t how I expected JaNoWriMo to start out for me. I guess I’d thought that somehow inspiration rockets would attach themselves to my fingertips, and the words would just shoot out onto the page by the thousands. That’s how it works for everyone else, right?
I didn’t write anything else that day.
Monday I grabbed my notebook and started again. The words weren’t exactly shooting out onto the page. It was definitely more of a slow, thoughtful trickle, but I was writing. And to my surprise, I was enjoying it. I was in my story world again. The characters were real again.
So, I’m writing again. I’m not writing super fast, and I’m certainly not an inspired genius. I’m just a writer who’s decided not to give up. Here’s to many more words in January! 🙂
How are you doing this week? Have you been shooting word rockets from your fingertips? Have you had trouble getting anything intelligible to come out onto the page? Don’t give up.
Oh, today I saw someone sharing their word for the year, and I was thinking I’d like to do something like that too. I’ll try to remember to share my word in next week’s update.