I have posted several rants. And I have written several more that I have refrained from posting. I have genuinely good-willed people trying to sway me one way or the other for good reasons, but I don’t want to be guilt-tripped into believing something I don’t believe. And the longer it goes, the worse it gets. The whole thing makes my heart hurt.
And so I’ve been retreating more and more from Facebook, and limiting the stories I read, because everything has gotten so ugly, and the more I read, the more I want to rant and spout off and convince people that they’re wrong, in much the same way that they’re trying to convince me I’m wrong.
Instead, I’ve been doing a lot of walking and playing Pokemon Go, investing in my writing and editing, and experimenting with some art projects. My daily step count is significantly higher the last week or two than normal. I’ve nearly finished this current novel. I have some exciting art projects in the works that I hope to share sometime in the coming weeks.
I don’t know what the future will bring. I don’t know who the next president will be. I don’t know how that person will or won’t change things that affect my day-to-day life.
I know God is in control, and though my heart hurts, my conscience is clean. And so I will go into November with a focus on NaNoWriMo rather than the election. I will spend my energy making beautiful and interesting things and helping others to do the same. I will look forward to the end of this farce of an election season and beyond it to Thanksgiving and Christmas and the new year, in which the world will be whatever it is and God will still be in control and I will be that much further along in my writing and other endeavors.