In our Lenten studies at church, I led a group of about 30 people in a study designed to help them discover their purpose.
In our last lesson, we talked about how doubt can often block us from moving forward. I shared about how writers often live in a tension between believing we’ve written works of sheer genius and believing we’ve written crap and have no business trying to write.
In Exodus 3:11, Moses says to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?”
He had massive doubts about his own abilities. But he had a unique life experience that made him the ideal liaison between the Israelites and the Egyptians.
God accepted no excuses from Moses, and he won’t accept excuses about our perceived inadequacy, either.
It is very human for us to question ourselves, and caution keeps us out of trouble…usually. But when we doubt ourselves is the time we most need to go to God for guidance. We need discernment to see when doubt comes from a real concern…this ending is too contrived; I need to fix it…and when it comes from false condemnation…I suck.
It is misguided modesty to say “I’m nothing special” or “Who am I?” Are we not all special because we have been made by a loving God in his own image?
I asked my class, “If your child said to you, ‘I’m nothing special…I’m no genius, who am I…’ how would you respond?”
One mom, who is also a preschool teacher, said it succinctly. “I’d cry.”
So how do you think God responds when you doubt the very gifts and abilities he’s given you?
In his book On-Purpose Peace, Kevin McCarthy writes: “We’re quick to pick up our cross, but reluctant to pick up our gift, because we feel unworthy, unwanted, unnoticed, or uncalled. That’s our ignorance, not His reality.”
If you believe that you are not uniquely gifted to serve the body of Christ, that is a lie from the father of lies, and you need to put it behind you and seek the wisdom of the Spirit to reveal the truth to you. God is sending you with a purpose just as he sent Moses. You have a unique set of gifts and life experiences that will equip you for the purpose to which you are called.