With the third week of Nano starting, I’m a tad behind the goal (about 4,000 words). I knew week 2 would be busier, and it was. But I also knew I’d be facing my biggest challenge as a writer.
That point in the story has always been a bugaboo for me. I love writing openings and endings. The start of my stories fly onto the page. When I reach the final conflict, I’m like a kid in a candy store. But the 15k to 30k window is where I stare at a page and struggle with doubt.
That’s when the hard work aspect of writing truly begins.
So, it wasn’t a complete shock when my productivity dropped last week. All the usual accusations formed in my mind.
This story isn’t good.
You’re not going anywhere with this.
How dare you attempt to write a good book when you can’t write a decent sentence.
If so, that’s the time to write more. Give yourself permission to not be perfect. Know you’re going to come back to that section to make it great once you finish the story. And then slog through it.
In addition to my 20k blues, I discovered a small problem with writing by the seat of my pants.
Since I’m not outlining this story ahead of time, cool ideas keep popping in my head while I write. Some of those ideas are at odds with what I’ve already written…
There must have been at least five times last week where I sat down and proudly hammered out the next scene by adding my “cool idea” only to realize that meant repairing an earlier scene to fix the plot hole. While you’re not supposed to do that in NaNo, I’m way too OCD to ignore a known plot problem.
So, I’m a bit behind. But there’s good news. I’ve never made it this far in NaNo, and I’m on holiday vacation for all of week 4.
Oh yeah, be afraid 50,000 words. Be very afraid.