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Time, Places and Change

While driving a wedding party in my limo this weekend, I made some observations about my life and how it has changed since college. First off, I felt vivid memories of my own wedding day, and all the embarrassments and joys that accompanied that day. Did you know that I sang my wife a song? I secretly practiced with a piano player for weeks. No voice coaches like you see on American Idol or The Voice, and I could have used one because there’s this one part that I never could figure out how to sing and it got me when I performed. My wife has a past in music and piano competitions, so I knew she’d notice any flat keys. Not that it really mattered of course. It was “Glory in the Highest” by Chris Tomlin, and she kind of sang parts of it with me. One funny part was that she knew I was going to sing it for her simply because she found the piano book in one of my bags. Have I ever mentioned how hard it is to surprise my wife? When I announced to the crowd that I was going to sing, she smiled like she knew, then admitted it. I’m not sure if I said anything then, but I was thinking how fitting it was that I marry a girl who knew me so well she knows all my secrets and what I’m thinking.

Hearing the drunk people in the back shouting and boasting of their special qualities reminded me of college–not me getting drunk, but going to parties and wanting to fit in with those who were. I won’t pretend I didn’t, but when I did I was still pretty quiet. It’s a weird feeling being reminded of how out of place we felt back in the day, and what we did trying to fit in. I used to really let it bother my self-esteem that I didn’t fit in with the party animals, or that I wasn’t smooth enough to attract the hot girls (I still don’t get how I attracted Rachel, but I’m thankful). It was the same in the suburbs of Ohio, Australia, New Zealand, Korea, seminary in Iowa, everywhere… but somehow God placed me with just the right girl–one who knows me and appreciates me in all my imperfections. She does like when I talk once and a while, but she also likes me for my deep thoughts.

So, it seems I haven’t changed much, but through trial and error I’ve learned to better utilize time and place to fit my comforts. Sometimes I day dream about the places and times I’ve been, but, really, the present is pretty cool too because I have the exciting opportunity for change in my control. This is kind of what it’s like as a writer, except we even have the power of change in whatever time and place we can imagine. What time or place would you like to imagine? What would you change to make it more interesting?

About Timothy C. Ward

Timothy C. Ward is a Hugo nominated producer for Adventures in SciFi Publishing, who has been lost, broke and surfed with sharks on the other side of the world. He now dreams of greater adventures from his keyboard in Des Moines, Iowa. This summer he released two novels: his second Sand Divers book, Scavenger: A.I., where two parents use an ancient technology to fight a reproducing A.I. while trying to resurrect their deceased infant; and Godsknife: Revolt, an apocalyptic battle for godhood in the rift between Iowa and the Abyss.

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