…not what I expected.
I suppose right now you’re saying to yourself, “Chicky, what makes you think you are a success in this biz?”
First, I told you, only Diane is allowed to call me Chicky.
Second, I’m surrounded by it. Look up at the top of this web page. See those names alongside mine? Those are writers, and they are friends. I have a whole slew of names in my email contact list that fall into the same two categories. I’m also a member of three local critique groups, where I’ve developed real relationships with other writers.
THAT is what marks my success these days. Not publishing credits or advances or royalties….although at one time those things would have made up my definition of success.
I imagined, at one time, that I would write my novel, send it off to and land an agent, then a publisher…and soon I’d be the next J.K. Rowling. Well, maybe not that far, but I sure didn’t expect to find out that landing an agent or publisher is about as easy as catching the wind with your bare hands!
Frustration doesn’t even begin to describe some of the feelings I’ve had.
BUT, time has passed. I’ve realized that by not being handed “success” I’ve been given a gift. Friends, relationships, people who may not be in my life otherwise. I’ve also gained time to learn things. Not just better writing, but how to build a blog and other computer skills I never thought I’d have. I’ve gotten back into drawing and my creativity has blossomed in ways I didn’t know existed. I’m shy by nature, and this slow build has given me time to grow as a person and come out of my shell.
I’m not one to fall back on clichés like, “All thing happen for a reason.” But, they do, don’t they? I wonder…what if I had landed that agent and publisher right off? What if advances and royalties had poured in from the beginning? (Not that they’ve poured in at all :P) I’d probably have missed out on all this—or stressed myself half to death trying to learn it before my book released. And then freaked out completely because I was ill equipped to handle the situation.
So today I thank God for my “success” even though it is not what I set out for.