The Never Ending Roller Coaster

I feel like such a roller coaster.  I don’t mean that I feel like a rider, I feel like the actual car.  It’s like I’m a part of this thing now and I have no choice but to go through the motions of the ride over and over again.  At least if you’re a rider you get to get off after one go.  Not me.  I seem to be in it for life.

And quite frankly, I’m getting frustrated at the ride.  Granted… being frustrated is also part of the ride, but I’m starting to really not like the entire thing.  But you know what?  I kind of like roller coasters, so tomorrow I’ll be completely ok with it.

“Gee, what’s this lunatic talking about?  Roller coasters?”  I’m glad you asked!

No, I’m talking about this game of trying to get published.  The song and dance of the industry.  The perpetual run-around of being a writer.  How does that make you feel?  Perhaps I should take a cue from Paul and just go eat donuts.  Hmm… now I’m hungry.

Anywho… to explain my grammatically incorrect rant… and maybe to redeem myself somewhat… but probably I’ll just come across as whining again…

My writing career and attempt to get Winter published are full of the most frustrating ups and downs.  One day I get a surge of Facebook fans all wanting to read the book, the next I get a surge of rejection letters.  One day I get an influx of great reviews from a critique site, the next an influx of rejection letters.  One day I’m doing a radio interview and give away a ton of free downloads, the next I get a ton of rejections letters.

I mean, seriously?

I keep a folder where I put all my email rejections.  There are 52 in there today.  That’s 52 unique rejections from as many agents and publishers as I could find to submit.  And not one manuscript request.  There are still some I haven’t heard from, but once I get those rejections I’ll add them to the folder.

At this point, I really don’t know what to do next except just keep writing.  I’ve found my market, and I’ve managed to somewhat tap into it and gauge the interest.  I know there are industry people interested in the book, but either it’s just not good timing or Winter is too risky.  I don’t know anymore.

I’m in the process of pulling most of my PR stuff offline, because it’s just not helping much.  Self-publishing is not an option for me.  One… Winter deserves better, I firmly believe that.  Two… I can’t afford it.

So my plan now is just to keep writing and keep praying.  In the meantime, I’ll also keep riding that roller coaster, because I don’t plan to change professions anytime soon.  Now… to see about those donuts.

How many rejections have you gotten?

How do you cope with the never-ending roller-coaster?

About Keven Newsome

Keven Newsome is an musician, theologian, and a bit of a nerd. He enjoys a variety of musical genres, from Christian rock to movie soundtracks to KPop. A former band director, he plays about a dozen instruments, given a couple of weeks to practice up. His theological work has included a book on multi-generational ministry and a thesis on the theology of communicating with the dead. As for his nerd-card, he enjoys the fandoms of The Legend of Zelda, Doctor Who, Avatar: The Last Airbender, and Lord of the Rings. With a music degree from William Carey University and a theology degree from the New Orleans Baptist Theological Seminary, Keven actively serves in ministry as both pastor and worship leader.

6 comments on “The Never Ending Roller Coaster

  1. I have received two. One from an agent and one from a publisher. Am I not trying hard enough? I don’t know. I am trying to be selective and trust God.

    The way I dealt with the those rejections? Well, the agent didn’t bother me at all. It was a form letter. The publisher? Well I cried all afternoon and prayed all afternoon. Then, I decided it was okay because everything happens for a reason. 😀

    • Are you trying hard enough? I don’t know, I guess that’s between you and God. Personally, when I send out submissions I send up to twenty at a time! Am I trying too hard?

      • Perhaps a happy medium is in order? LOL Still, it only takes the right one in this industry. I am praying all of us here at NAF get a hold of the right one. Positive thinking is a wonderful weapon I use daily. 😀

      • Amen!

  2. So far, 13 is probably the most acurate number I can give – but that was all with Forger ( the book I was working on before). I spent over two years submitting that one only to decide that it’s not a good debut novel and shelved the thing still in half revised bits. I finally got an agent to read half of it and tell me that although he liked my style and characters, the book “lacked spark” and wouldn’t sell well as it was. I had already spent like five years on that one so it was difficult to walk away from it, but I know it was the right thing. I understand your roller coaster analogy.

    At that point I practically started over – totally redesigning my entire series, world, cultures, characters and especially plotlines. then I started a new draft of an old book – Hall of Masters. And that’s where I am now. So, technically, I don’t have any rejection letters for Hall yet. Sometimes I wish I did though… Starting over left part of me even more impatient and anxious to move to the next stage. My rollercoaster curcit seems to include entire books and drafts between submission cycles.

    Oh well – I dont’ regret. I know that I have a better book in Hall, with a stronger plotline. And like you, I’ll just keep writing and keep at it. Good, “human” post from the inside. Thanks Keven. Good luck.

  3. I stopped counting at about fifty but I’d have to guess at around eighty. All my submissions were by snail mail and I generally never submitted to more than one agent or publisher at a time. That’s a lot of waiting!

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