On the TV, in magazines and virtually everywhere you look, you see the signs of narcissism. As a mother, this terrifies me and breaks my heart. Our daughters are given an unrealistic idea of what they should look like and how much they should weigh and our sons forget to look at the inner beauty and grace of women and their selves. I am not saying all of society is like this but it is crammed down our throats at every turn.
I actually entertained the idea of plastic surgery when I was in my early twenties. It is not something I am proud of but it speaks volumes to the work God has done in my heart and mind. It is so easy to fall into the world face first. Being the inquisitive type of person I am, I had to ask a zillion questions of myself and of God. Here are a few of them.
1) Who made me?
2) Does he think I am beautiful?
Always. He sees my heart and soul and knows it is HIS.
3) Who proportioned my body?
4) Does God make mistakes?
God loves me inside and out. He knows every hair on my head and feels all of my heartache and insecurity. He made me just so and who am I to question His perfect plan? If I change what He made me, I am putting myself before Him and calling God a liar.
It took many years for me to realize I was being shallow. My hair had to be just so and you would never catch me out without makeup. I starved myself and exercised without cease to maintain a worldly weight. Sad…I know but I assure you I am over that. Now, I know what I am is beautiful only because He lives inside of me. All the worldly things are but a band-aid for ugly shallowness.
Peace, love and God’s will.